memories...

as usual, i was 'hanging out' with my laptop, when i saw this photo. must be somewhere around 1993-94 when this photo was taken. It shows my nani, mummy and yours truly. No matter how much you try and hammer reality in ur mind, photos like these will always crop up innocently from somewhere and make u realize all that has changed. Nostalgia is a pretty funny feeling, it'll make u cry even in the middle of a hearty laugh. i had been gazing at this photo for the past half an hour, trying to find the old times, trying to gather my memories. I can't remember clearly, my thoughts are as blurred as the photo, as if the photo is trying to teach me a lesson. A lesson that, somewhere in my quest for growth, i have blurred my own past. There is an empty feeling in me, i feel as i have lost...what, maybe all that i can never comprehend.

Dear nani, most of the time, each day...i live to make my future happy, to be successful. I just want to tell you one thing, probably i want to tell this to all those i love, including nanaji... i miss being the same as i was. I may not be able to speak, mostly because the falseness of my maturity will prevent me from doing so...but i love you all a lot, and i love that house a lot.

ripples...